Firozah's diary...

Ups & downs

I got a tattoo of my late cat, Gus, yesterday. I commissioned one of my favorite illustrators to draw it, and my favorite local tattoo artist (who's now done three out of four of my tattoos) to ink it. Brodie came along for the adventure, and we had such a nice time — it felt like hanging out with a friend. We talked about Pokémon, Animal Crossing, BG3, and more of our common interests. Chu is such a delight and the result is always perfect. This is my first new tattoo in about two or three years, and I'm definitely getting the itch again 🥴.

Once my new tattoo heals, I'm going to start taking my physical health goals more seriously. Because I want to feel better, more at home in my body, and lighter. I don't want to feel short of breath or tired all the time, and that comes with making exercise a regular part of my routine. Because avoiding going to the gym isn't what I want to do; it's just the familiar feeling of resistance that's holding me back, making excuses for me. I always feel better when I make healthy choices, and feeling good is what I actually want — not staying home and feeling bad about myself and letting toxic thoughts overtake me. If anyone happens to be reading this and resonates with what I'm saying, I recommend this book on the subject of resistance: the self-sabotaging behavior that keeps us away from our goals and makes us feel like we don't actually want to achieve them. But the truth is, we all do want to inherently improve our lives. The voice that's telling you you don't is the familiar voice of resistance, because it's easier to remain inert than be momentarily uncomfortable in pursuit of our goals.